So many people have left. People who I loved. And the others who used to think I was insignificant think I'm mean and cold. Maybe I'm a really bad person... But mostly I'm only bad for myself

Except i AM a lunatic so WHO KNOWS

I LOVE YOU SO MUCH and i'm sorry that's all I can give you for now

thank you for caring, ladies

PS: Peri, don't EVER change because you are UNBELIEVABLE

I changed so much but now it's like everyone else is and i'm not. I am so uncomfortable in this skin. I am so uncomfortable with anything intimate. Which makes me some kind of freak, apparently.

oh don't mind me i'm just FREAKING OUT BECAUSE I HAVE A "NORMAL" BMI

I last weighed in on a non-digital scale, fully clothed. Maybe it's just wrong. But that doesn't help the vertigo.

I NEED A DIGITAL SCALE NOW this can't be happening I TOTALLY DESERVE IT

I need to induce an episode of mania. I need the high I need the empty I need it now. I am so very disconnected from reality. But I'm sluggish. My brain is slow. I need the rush of summer, the hot hot heat of frenzy and insanity. I've spent too many hours staring at ceilings and everything I do is painful. I need out of this comatose