So many people have left. People who I loved. And the others who used to think I was insignificant think I'm mean and cold. Maybe I'm a really bad person... But mostly I'm only bad for myself

Except i AM a lunatic so WHO KNOWS

I LOVE YOU SO MUCH and i'm sorry that's all I can give you for now

thank you for caring, ladies

PS: Peri, don't EVER change because you are UNBELIEVABLE

I changed so much but now it's like everyone else is and i'm not. I am so uncomfortable in this skin. I am so uncomfortable with anything intimate. Which makes me some kind of freak, apparently.

oh don't mind me i'm just FREAKING OUT BECAUSE I HAVE A "NORMAL" BMI

I last weighed in on a non-digital scale, fully clothed. Maybe it's just wrong. But that doesn't help the vertigo.

I NEED A DIGITAL SCALE NOW this can't be happening I TOTALLY DESERVE IT

I need to induce an episode of mania. I need the high I need the empty I need it now. I am so very disconnected from reality. But I'm sluggish. My brain is slow. I need the rush of summer, the hot hot heat of frenzy and insanity. I've spent too many hours staring at ceilings and everything I do is painful. I need out of this comatose

how are things?

Kinda fell out of existence there. Be back soon... Maybe? No, definitely. I'll come back even if it's to say goodbye. I'll try.

communication is just not happening right now. i'm sorry.